Fai Zakaria Masterpieces

HOAX

2011-09-21T08:11:00.000-07:00

mix media on canvas

36" x 48"
- RM 5,555 | USD 1,900 -

artwork exhibited at Exhibition Hall, Level 4, Danga city mall, Johor baharu
from Sptember 15 - September 15, 2011
for 1Malaysia Contemporary Art Tourism 2011 Exhibition.

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Definition : A hoax is a deliberately fabricated falsehood made to masquerade as truth. It is distinguishable from errors in observation or judgment.

I was down and sad about the news I saw and heard that day. The accusation, the allocation of blames and loyalty. Some I know it’s true but some is just too painful to ignore or to swallow. It hurts and scarred me.

Felt betrayed, annoyed and disgusted with what I heard, I poured all the anger, sadness, resentment and hatred on canvas. And the prose below best describes the event and what I felt at that particular moment. As for now, I let go and let God.

Kawan kah itu?

Kata, kata, kata dan kata lagi,
Mengatalah kau selagi kau boleh berkata-kata.
Tuduh, tuduh, tuduh dan tuduh lagi,
Jangan menuduh hingga dituduh pula.
Hina, hina, hina dan hina lagi,
Jangan menghina hingga dihina nanti.

Aku tahu hal kau, kau dan kau,
Bukan dari yang lain,
Bukan dari yang tak tahu,
Tapi dari kau, kau dan kau juga.

Dan yang sadisnya,
Aku juga tahu,
Bahawa kau, kau dan kau,
Berkata tentang aku.

Berdesas, berdesis,
Ke sana, ke sini,
Menjaja cerita,
Yang tak ternilai.

Kerana yang paling galak bercerita itu,
Paling ramai pengikutnya.

Mungkin bernilai sepotong janji,
Untuk tidak dikongsi dengan yang lain,
Mungkin bernilai kosong,
Untuk mengisi suasana hening,
Mungkin bernilai besar,
Untuk mendapat perhatian.

Yang pasti,
Yang di atas sana,
Lebih mengetahui nilainya,
Untuk kau, kau dan kau bayar suatu hari nanti,
Sama ada di sini – yang lebih cepat dan berat,
Atau pun di sana – yang aku pun tak pasti apa jumlah yang tepat!

HASTE

2011-07-13T04:14:00.000-07:00

mix media on canvas

48" x 36"
- RM 7,777 | USD 2,600 -

artwork submitted for Shah Alam Open Show 2011

and was picked among the 90 chosen art pieces

from the 141 submitted art pieces

to exhibit at Shah Alam Gallery from July 11 - August 26, 2011.

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"He That Believeth Shall Not Make Haste“

The aloes grow upon the sand,

The aloes thirst with parching heat;

Year after year they waiting stand,

Lonely and calm, and front the beat

Of desert winds; and still a sweet

And subtle voice thrills all their veins:

"Great patience wins; it still remains,

After a century of pains,

To you to bloom and be complete."

I grow upon a thorny waste;

Hot noontide lies on all the way,

And with its scorching breath makes haste

Each freshening dawn to burn and slay,

Yet patiently I bide and stay:

Knowing the secret of my fate,

The hour of bloom, dear God, I wait,

Come when it will, or soon or late,

A hundred years are but a day.

FADE III

2011-03-29T16:31:00.001-07:00

mix media on canvas

18" x 24" x 3pcs
- RM 3,800 | USD 1,270 -

March 2011 - RM3,500 SOLD

to Mr Johan Mohd Dali,

Geneva, Switzerland.

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I am done

Smoking gun

We've lost it all

The love is gone

She has won

Now its no fun

We've lost it all

The love is gone

And we had magic

And this is tragic

You couldn't keep your hands to yourself

I feel like our world's been infected,

And somehow you left me neglected

We've found our lives been changed

Babe, you lost me

And we tried

Oh, how we cried

Oh, we lost ourselves

The love has died

Now I know you're sorry

And we were sweet

Oh, but you chose lust when you deceived me

And you'll regret it, but it's too late

How can I ever trust you again?

Butterfly Kisses Promo

2011-03-15T07:31:00.000-07:00

acrylic & paint markers on canvas

- HFA 20a-d - 3"x 3" - RM10/pc -

- HFA 21a-d - 4"x 3" - RM15/pc -

- HFA 22a-c - 4"x 4" - RM20/pc -

- HFA 23a-c - 4"x 8" - RM75/pc -

- HFA 24a-c - 5"x 5" x 2pcs - RM200/set -

- HFA 25 - 4"x 8" x 3pcs - RM250/set -

- HFA 26 - 4"x 6" x 3pcs - RM300/set -

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Butterfly Kisses March Promo! 10 sets to grab.

Price only valid until end of March. All orders received after April 1st will be charge the Nomal Retail Price. Hurrry! Place your order now. =)

CHARM

2011-03-14T07:45:00.000-07:00

mix media on canvas

8" x 16" x 3pcs

- RM 750 | USD 250 -

- Butterfly Kisses March 2011 -

RM500 SOLD to Puan Kamaliah Mohd Ayub,

Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia -

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There's two things I know for sure:

She was sent here from heaven and she's daddy's little girl.

As I drop to my knees by her bed at night

She talks to Jesus and I close my eyes and

I thank god for all the joy in my life

Oh, but most of all

For butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer;

sticking little white flowers all up in her hair;

"Walk beside the pony, Daddy, it's my first ride."

"I know the cake looks funny, Daddy, but I sure tried."

In all that I've done wrong

I know I must have done something right

to deserve a hug every morning and butterfly kisses at night.

Sweet 16 today

She's looking like her mama a little more everyday

One part woman, the other part girl.

To perfume and make-up from ribbons and curls

Trying her wings out in a great big world.

But I remember

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer;

sticking little white flowers all up in her hair.

"You know how much I love you, Daddy, but if you don't mind

I'm only gonna kiss you on the cheek this time."

With all that I've done wrong I must have done something right

to deserve her love every morning and butterfly kisses at night.

All the precious time

Like the wind, the years go by.

Precious butterfly.

Spread your wings and fly.

She'll change her name today.

She'll make a promise and I'll give her away.

Standing in the bride-room just staring at her.

She asked me what I'm thinking

and I said "I'm not sure-I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl."

She leaned over...

Gave me butterfly kisses with her mama there,

Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair

"Walk me down the aisle, Daddy-it's just about time."

"Does my wedding gown look pretty,

Daddy? Daddy, don't cry!"

Oh, with all that I've done wrong I must have done something right.

To deserve your love every morning and butterfly kisses

I couldn't ask God for more, man this is what love is.

I know I gotta let her go, but I'll always remember

every hug in the morning and butterfly kisses.

FLOURISH I & II

2011-03-13T08:01:00.000-07:00

mix media on canvas

8" x 10" x 3pcs

- RM 175/pc | USD 50 -

- Butterfly Kisses March 2011 -

Florish I - RM150 SOLD to Puan Norisnini Sidek,

Selangor Darul Ehsan, Malaysia

Florish II - RM150 SOLD to Puan Rs Iena D'izmans,
Yanbu Al Sinaiyah, Al Madinah, Saudi Arabia.

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"Love is like a butterfly,

it goes where it pleases

and it pleases wherever it goes".

EUPHORIA III & IV

2011-03-12T08:12:00.000-08:00

mix media on canvas

8" x 8"

- RM 150/pc | USD 50/pc -

- Butterfly Kisses March 2011 -

RM200 SOLD to Cik Siti Mahiran,

Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia -

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Love is like a butterfly,

hold it too tight, it'll crush,

hold it too loose, it'll fly.

TWIDDLE III & IV

2011-03-11T08:26:00.000-08:00

paint art marker on canvas

triangle 16"
- RM 200/pc | USD 60/pc -

Twiddle I - RM175 SOLD to Puan Rs Iena D'izmans,
Yanbu Al Sinaiyah, Al Madinah, Saudi Arabia.

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Butterfly In The Wind

A child is...

A butterfly in the wind,

Some can fly higher than others;

but each one flies the best it can.

Why compare one against the other?

Each one is different!

Each one is special!

Each one is beautiful!

FLARE I & II

2011-03-10T08:35:00.000-08:00

mix media on canvas

8" x 8"

- RM 100/pc | USD 30/pc -

RM150 per set SOLD to Puan Amlyza Jaamat,
Semanggol, Perak, Malaysia.

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You can chase a butterfly

all over the field

and never catch it.

But if you sit quietly in the grass

it will come and sit on your shoulder.

FLUTTER I a-d

2011-03-09T08:41:00.000-08:00

mix media on canvas

4" x 4" x 4 pcs
- RM 35/pc | USD 10/pc -

- Butterfly Kisses March 2011 -
Fluttery I b+d - RM60 SOLD to Ms. Natasha Ili,
Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
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A butterfly hovers closely

And then quickly moves away,

Swiftly going wheresoever

Her heart may freely say.

A butterfly lowers and rises

With the wind's gusty breath,

As if coupled within a dance

Of a loving tenderness.

The butterfly only knows

How it feels to have wings,

To kiss the petals of flowers

In such elegant flitterings.

To have but one moment

Of such an esquisite flight,

Would be like a dream

Where all seems so right.

FLUTTER II a-d

2011-03-08T09:12:00.000-08:00

mix media on canvas

4" x 4" x 4 pcs
- RM 35/pc | USD 10/pc -

- Butterfly Kisses March 2011 -
Fluttery II a+b - RM60 SOLD to Ms. Natasha Ili,
Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia -

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A butterfly hovers closely

And then quickly moves away,

Swiftly going wheresoever

Her heart may freely say.

A butterfly lowers and rises

With the wind's gusty breath,

As if coupled within a dance

Of a loving tenderness.

The butterfly only knows

How it feels to have wings,

To kiss the petals of flowers

In such elegant flitterings.

To have but one moment

Of such an esquisite flight,

Would be like a dream

Where all seems so right.

SMOOCH

2011-03-07T09:16:00.000-08:00

mix media on canvas

5" x 5" x 2 pcs - reversible
- RM 200/set | USD 60/set -

RM150 SOLD to Miss Iman Azhar,
Kelana Jaya, Selangor Darul Ehsan.

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Flutter by,

Butterfly,

Floating flower in the sky.

Kiss me with your,

Petal wings,

Whisper secrets,

Tell of spring.

GLITTERY

2011-03-06T09:23:00.000-08:00

mix media on canvas

4" x 4" x 1 1/2" x 4 pcs
- RM 200/set | USD 60/set -

- Butterfly Kisses March 2011 -
RM150 SOLD to Cik Siti Mahiran Adbul Hadi,
Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia -

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Spread you wings and prepare to fly,

For you have become a butterfly,

Fly abandonedly into the sun.

If you should return to me,

We truly were meant to be,

So spread your wings and fly,

Butterfly..

SERENDIPITY III

2011-03-05T09:31:00.000-08:00

mix media on canvas

4" x 6" x 3 pcs
- RM 300/set | USD 90/set -

- March Promo -
- RM 250/set -

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Airplanes take you away again

are you flying above where we live

then I look up, a glare in my eyes

are you having regrets about last night

I'm not, but I like rivers that rush in

so then I dove in

Is there trouble ahead for you, the acrobat?

I won't push you, unless you have a net

Balloons look good from on the ground

I fear with pins and needles around

we may fall then stumble upon a carousel

It could take us anywhere

You say the word you know I will find you

or if you need some time I don't mind

I don't hold on to the tail of your kite

I'm not like the girls that you've known

but I believe I'm worth comin' home to kiss away night

this girl only sleeps with butterflies

So go on and fly then, boy

FADE II

2011-02-02T00:14:00.000-08:00

mix media on canvas
8" x 6" x 3pcs

- RM 525 | USD 150 -

RM500 SOLD to Mr. Johan Mohd Dali,
Geneva, Switzerland.

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I looked at your face I saw that all the love had died

I saw that we had forgotten to take the time

I, I saw that you couldn't care less about what you do

Couldn't care less about the lies

You couldn't find the time to cry

We forgot about love

We forgot about faith

We forgot about trust

We forgot about us

You said that you had said all that you had to say

You said baby it's the end of the day

And we gave a lot but it wasn't enough

We got so tired that we just gave up

We didn't respect it

We went and neglected it

We didn't deserve it

But I never expected this

Our love floated out the window

Our love floated out the back door

Our love floated up in the sky to heaven

It's part of a plan

It's back in God's hands

Back in God's hands

It didn't last

It's a thing of the past

Oh we didn't understand

Just what we had

Oh I want it back

Oh just what we had

VIVID V

2011-01-13T18:13:00.001-08:00

mix media on canvas

30" x 40"
- RM2,100 | USD 600 -

Jan 2011 - RM1,800 SOLD

to Ms Seri Hamda,
Petaling Jaya, Selangor Malaysia.

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simpan pegang seranah caci

aku simpan seranahmu dalam liang telinga

dengan harap yang aku gunungkan dari sebutir zarah hati,

semoga diciptakan tuhan suatu hari nanti untuk aku

ambilkan semula dan paksa kau jilat kembali.

aku pegang cacianmu dalam salur kerongkong

dengan mimpi yang aku campingkan dari secebis ngilu,

semoga dikenankan tuhan suatu hari nanti untuk engkau

dapatkan semula dan kunyah setiap satu persatu.

kerana bahasamu yang kau pinjam dari iblis itu,

terlalu indah bunyinya sehinggakan aku mahu sekali

simpankan dan pegangkan sehingga suatu masa

yang kau jilat dan kunyahkan dengan hina.

kerana aku tidak reti untuk mati,

semata mata untuk lidah yang kau sewa dari neraka.

kerana aku tidak akan mahu mati,

selagi yang benar tidak memberi aku syurga.

Heart for Art : V-day Collection

2011-01-10T00:34:00.000-08:00

acrylic & paint markers on canvas

- HFA 20a-d - 3"x 3" - RM10/pc -

- HFA 21a-d - 4"x 3" - RM15/pc -

- HFA 22a-c - 4"x 4" - RM20/pc -

- HFA 23a-c - 4"x 8" - RM75/pc -

- HFA 24a-c - 5"x 5" x 2pcs - RM200/set -

- HFA 25 - 4"x 8" x 3pcs - RM250/set -

- HFA 26 - 4"x 6" x 3pcs - RM300/set -

- HFA 25 - 4"x 8" x 3pcs - RM250/set -

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Once sold, similar piece can be create. So, place your order now.

REMINISCENCE

2011-01-05T13:52:00.000-08:00

mix media on canvas

36" x 36"
- RM 3,150 | USD 900 -

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Hidden Memories

I packed you away,

In a little cardboard box

Hidden under my bed

And you fit most perfectly,

Just that way,

Hidden from view…

…Yet always silently there…

I hid you-

You and your smiles,

Your gifts, and memories…

Everything about you.

Because I couldn’t take it…

I couldn’t take you anymore.

It hurt too much

So stay hidden in your cardboard box,

And perhaps you’ll fade…

…

Why kid myself?

I know you’re there…

I can feel your contents drawing me in

Drawing me closer to you.

But some memories haunt me-

Memories of you…

Of ‘us’.

You rattle in your confined space

Singing in the night,

Pleading to me as I dream

To open you up, and look inside…

But I can’t do that… I won’t…

And slowly your song fades…

For there are other songs…

Other singers

Those who dream with me.

Heart for Art - 11i+12i+13i+14i

2011-01-03T13:23:00.000-08:00

mix media on canvas
8" x 8" x 4 pcs
- RM65/piece -

RM250 Limited Space Sale Nov 2010

SOLD to Ms Noor Indah Muhamad,

Shah Alam Selangor, Malaysia.

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First set Sold for 2011. Alhamdulillah =)

TWINE I & II

2010-12-12T11:30:00.000-08:00

paint art marker on canvas

square diam. 16"

- RM 245 | USD 70 per piece -

- March Promo -
- RM 200/pc | RM 350/set -

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Once u have gained trust,

do not jeopardise it.

...Trust is expensive.

TWIDDLE I & II

2010-12-11T11:20:00.000-08:00

paint art marker on canvas

triangle 16"
- RM 175 | USD 50 per piece -

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Butterfly In The Wind

A child is........

A butterfly in the wind,

Some can fly higher than others;

but each one flies the best it can.

Why compare one against the other?

Each one is different!

Each one is special!

Each one is beautiful!

EUPHORIA II

2010-11-29T04:53:00.000-08:00

mix media on canvas
8" x 8" x 6pcs

- RM 700 | USD 200 -

Nov 2010 Limited Space Sale

RM 300 SOLD to Puan Ifah Khairuddin,

Nilai, Negeri Sembilan, Malaysia.

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And I have loved

And I have served

And I have sinned

But I have learned

As long as you are true to the life

That you live

This is the time to feel love

I feel a stirring deep within

Slowly picking up momentum

Like the tide coming in to shore

Over and under in its course

This feeling emblazed inside

Every nerve like a firefly

Hovering above me

Glow, Glow,

Glowing divine

I never want to lose what I have finally found

There's a requiem

A new congregation

And it's telling me go forward and walk

Under a brighter sky

Every nerve glowing like a firefly

Glow, Glow, Divine

Every nerve like a firefly, glowing

Every nerve like a firefly, glow

BITTERSWEET

2010-11-18T07:18:00.000-08:00

mix media on canvas

18” x 24” x 3pcs
- RM2,625 | USD 750 -

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Mengembara kecewa membawa rintihan rasa semalam

Matahari harapan berlabuh di banjaran mimpi semasa

Beralun rumput nan panjang di bukit tanpa pohonan

Mengalir nanah di kali, mengeruh banjir tengkujuh

Apakan ertinya itu bagai putus cinta

Nyatakan biarku membantu memikul bebanmu

Langkahmu baru bermula mengapa nafsu meronta

Pandanglah batu di jalan, berhati bila melangkah

Engkau pun tahu

Aku pun tahu

Beginilah kita

Ikut rasa binasa

REMORSE

2010-11-15T07:39:00.000-08:00

mix media on canvas

36" x 36"
- RM2,625 | USD 750 -

RM2,400 SOLD to Mr. Johan Mohd Dali,

Geneva, Switzerland.

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Waktu pintumu ku buka setengah

gemersik menikam mengalun suara

ku tinjau sejenak untuk periksa

bergema di Lembah Inderaloka

Suaramu membisik merdu di kalbu

...memanggilku

Kubuka sepenuh pintu dayamu

dan melangkah masuk kedalam taman mu

aku tak pasti apa akan berlaku

kalau aku ditangkap pengawalmu

Mungkin aku akan terkorban

...dalam merinduimu

Tapi kenapa kau hadir saja

dalam setiap mimpi-mimpiku

dan meninggalkan kunci dan peta

kalau aku kau tak ingini

Kasih, siapa aku di sisimu

kini ku berada dalam taman mu

tiada aku takut akan kematian

kerana hidup dan mati sama untukku

telah kulalui, berulang kali

Keindahan taman mu tiada bermakna

jika wajahmu tidak kutemui

biar ku terlantar dimamah waktu

aku tetap akan menunggumu

Kasih, siapa aku di sisimu

ku pakukan kakiku ke tanahmu

biar berdarah menjadi sungai

agar tak bisa dicabut oleh sesiapa

yang mahu menghalau ku keluar...!

STUPEFY IV

2010-11-14T04:20:00.000-08:00

mix on canvas
30” x 40”
- RM 3,150 | USD 900 -

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With an additional of last layer of gold. This piece is done few days ago till I saw the status of the blog's owner wanted to go for her check up the next day - worrying... I know from what I've read - she's one of the survivor cancer patient. And tonight, my prayers goes to her for tomorrow and the day after and forever. Amin. The gold represent brighter day, hopes, joy, cheerful and prosperous to her. Insya-Allah.

Compare to other piece in Stupefy series, this has a different colours. Usually I will have Blue & Red wax for the dripping part. Gold has always be the base and the top finish. White or Black for the base wax. And yes, it's always about 'The Good & The Bad'. I wanted to do the same colour [ err, instead of blue and red - Green & Red ] but on bigger canvas until I received a message on my FB from Pumkinmummy Cupcakes on their new promotion. And their latest profile pix, really caught my attention. Not only they look slurpy and yummy but it gave me an inspiration to use a new colour but the same technique for my artwork.

And I've decided to use my new wax collection. Which have more choice of colours and of course smell. The brown that I used have pastry smell. For 2 days my whole house especially the living room smells like I've been baking the whole day. *nice!* So, enjoy! This piece is about to have or not to have all this sinful stuff. Err - I means sweet, sugar, chocolates and flour. Of course you can have them but not like me, always in big huge intake! *yeah*

* Psssttt... Check out Pumkinmummy's album. I think most of cupcakes photos I've seen are nice or interesting but this one - they're different, they look yummy and makes you drool!!! *wink* My special thanks to Ms Suliana Dzulkifli, keep up the good work Babe & will definitely grab few box of your cuppies one day. *insya-Allah*

INTOXICATED VII, VIII & IX

2010-11-10T03:51:00.000-08:00

paint markers on canvas
dia.12" x 3pcs
- RM 175 | USD 50 per piece -

Nov 2010
Limited Space Sale
RM100- Left SOLD to Ms Farina Adam Khong,
Rawang Selangor, Malaysia.
RM200- Middle& Right SOLD to Ms Siti Fatimah Mohd Khairi,
Ampang Selangor, Malaysia.

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It's the same piece as the one in my previous post.
But with an additional butterfly.
I like it and hope you like it too!

I'm high on happiness,
From full dosage of love,
May this feelings,
Remains forever.

My Candy Eyes,
Thank you for everything...

SERENITY VI

2010-11-09T03:38:00.000-08:00

mix media on canvas
24" x 36"
- RM1,750 | USD 500 -

artwork submitted for Pelita Hati Open Show 2010
to exhibit at Pelita Hati Gallery of Art Bangsar.

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Originally, this piece comes in 3 pcs. It's called Serenity IV but due to the rest of them had fall from my bedroom wall... And only this piece survived. I decided to repaint the rest and leave this one out and of course, let it go at the very best price!

So, first come first serve basis - the first one - Serenity V - the only piece that survived during that fall... I'm letting this go at RM500 only! It's a very fragile artwork I must warn you. The sand used for this piece won't stay at where it should be if drop. So, handle with care!

And as for this... I've added some more sand to closed the part that has broken and patch another layer with more leaf. The top part, of course - my signature - the wax work. I wants it to have the water/wave effect. Looking forward to edit the 3rd piece. Soon...

All Sold Out!

2010-11-04T16:40:00.000-07:00

mix media & acrylic on canvas
4" x 4" x 35pcs
- RM20/piece for the black, red & white -
- RM30/piece for the striking colours -
and for every sold piece, RM2.50 will be donated to a charity organization -

- MAKNA Charity Bazaar event on 24th October 2010
at White Box, MAP, Jalan Duta Kuala Lumpur -

- Door Gift for VVIP on 3rd November 2010
for Malam Sanjungan Budi Semarak Kaseh
sempena persaraan Assisten Ketua Staf Kejuruteraan TUDM,
Mejar Jeneral Ir Dato Ibrahim bin Bahari
at Tropicana Golf Country Club -

RM100.00 has been donated to a charity organization for Cambodia Kids

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Alhamdulillah. All went well.

EUPHORIA I

2010-11-01T05:03:00.000-07:00

mix media on canvas
8" x 8" x 2pcs

- unavailable -

6 Nov - 6 Dec 2010 exhibited at Pahang Art Museum.

Art Under 500 Exhibition - Mixed Bag of Artist with Mad mixed of Arts. -

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And I have loved

And I have served

And I have sinned

But I have learned

As long as you are true to the life

That you live

This is the time to feel love

I feel a stirring deep within

Slowly picking up momentum

Like the tide coming in to shore

Over and under in its course

This feeling emblazed inside

Every nerve like a firefly

Hovering above me

Glow, Glow,

Glowing divine

I never want to lose what I have finally found

There's a requiem

A new congregation

And it's telling me go forward and walk

Under a brighter sky

Every nerve glowing like a firefly

Glow, Glow, Divine

Every nerve like a firefly, glowing

Every nerve like a firefly, glow

ESSENCE

2010-10-31T17:29:00.000-07:00

mix media on canvas
16" x 39" x 2pcs
- RM 3,500 | USD 1,000 -

artwork submitted for Open Art Exhibition Pesta Pulau Pinang 2009
Theme "A Sense of Flavors"
to exhibit at Penang State Art Gallery.

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Food for Thought... the colours.

For me, Penang is a food paradise, among others. I love Penang food, its essences and aroma, thus the birth of Essence I. The background with curves represents the pipping steaming hot delicious dishes available in Penang. It is also represents the various mouth-watering gravies.

The Silver and Gold, represent the rich history Penang is blessed with, including the dishes available that are from various cultures and ethnicity. The spices pasted on the piece is an authenticity of Penang herself. The history of spice is almost as old as human civilization.

It is a history of lands discovered, empires built and brought down, wars won and lost, treaties signed and flouted, flavours sought and offered, and the rise and fall of different religious practices and beliefs. Spices were among the most valuable items of trade in ancient and medieval time and Penang herself has the most interesting story to tell. There is no single sense that defines flavour - although we perceive the flavour of food in our mouths, it is our brains that determine flavour.

My brains (or mind) translates the colour red as a stimulant. Red is the hottest of the warm colours. So in Essence I, I used Red, Orange and Yellow. Yellow is a colour that gets attention and is overpowering. While Orange is vibrant and is also known as an appetite stimulant. The combination of red and yellow and orange used in Essence I, denotes energy, warmth, and the sun- exactly how all the delicious food and its aroma in Penang stimulates me.

While in Essence II, I used Green, Brown and Yellow.

All the colours used is my way of describing Penang Island that is also known as the Pearl of the Orient and heaven for food lovers, who come from all over the world. Penang's cuisine reflects the Chinese, Malay and Indian ethnic mix of Malaysia!

FADE I

2010-10-30T05:16:00.000-07:00

mix media on canvas
8" x 6" x 3pcs

- unavailable -

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Sparkling grey,

They're my own veins.

Any more than a whisper,

Any sudden movement of my heart.

And I know, I know I'll have to watch them pass away

Just get through this day

Give up your way, you could be anything,

Give up my way, and lose myself, not today

That's too much guilt to pay

Sickened in the sun

You dare tell me you love me

But you held me down and screamed you wanted me to die

Honey you know, you know I'd never hurt you that way

You're just so pretty in your pain

Give up my way, and I could be anything

I'll make my own way

Without your senseless hate... hate... hate... hate.

So run, run, run

And hate me, if it feels good.

I can't hear your screams anymore

You lied to me

But I'm older now

And I'm not buying baby

Demanding my response

Don't bother breaking the door down

I found my way out

And you'll never hurt me again.

AURA

2010-10-25T17:12:00.000-07:00

mix media & acrylic on canvas
36" x 48"
- RM 7,000 | USD 2,000 -

artwork submitted for Maybank 50 years Art Exhibition
theme Expressions of the Malayan Tiger 2010
to exhibit at Balai Seni, Menara Maybank, Kuala Lumpur.

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Currently 10 years into the millennium, the world is now at a super fast pace, everything is evolving per millisecond including Maybank and its services.

With its online services everything can be done within a click thus the two triangle on my piece symbolizes 'the-fast-forward' button.

While we are chasing to be at the top, yet we must remember the past that brought us to the future.

Trough the black and gold the background, I attempted captured the qualities of the majestic Malayan tiger as per the theme reflections of Strength, Vigour and Elegance.

The Red in the piece means Stop or rather - We should stop all the killings! There are fewer than 5,000 wild tigers in the world and only about 500 are left in Malaysia, a sharp decline from an estimated 3,000 in the 1950s.

The Green is a sign for Go! Or Lets start going green to save the forest. We should now recycle, reuse and reduce!

The dripping black wax with gold base represents the tears due to pollution that sooner or later will destroy our ancient treasures, the air, water and earth, if we do not act now!

Heart for Art 16-19

2010-10-21T21:40:00.000-07:00

paint art marker on canvas

5" x 5" x 4 pcs
- RM70 | USD 20 per piece -

RM200 Limited Space Sale Nov 2010

SOLD to Ms Trixie Ann Moissinac,

Singapore.

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INTOXICATED V & VI

2010-10-21T17:33:00.000-07:00

mix media on round canvas

dia. 12"
- RM 245 | USD 70 per piece -

RM200.00 SOLD to Mr John F Seademon & Ms Jasmeen Zahri,
Ampang, Kuala Lumpur Malaysia.

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Butterfly Wishes

Yesterday a butterfly
Came floating gently through the sky.
He soared up through the atmosphere
Then drifted close enough to hear.

I said, "I'd love to fly with you
And sail around the way you do.
It looks like it would be such fun
To fly up toward the summer sun.

But I have not your graceful charm.
I haven't wings, just these two arms.
I've been designed to walk around.
My human feet must touch the ground.

Then magically he spoke to me
and told me what his wish would be.

He said, "What I'd love most to do
Is walk upon God's Earth with you,
To squish it's mud between my toes
Or touch my finger to my nose.

I'd love just once to walk around
With human feet to touch the ground,
But I have not two legs that swing,
I haven't arms, just these two wings."

And so we went our separate ways
In wonder and surprise.
For we'd both seen God's precious gifts
Through someone else's eyes.

STUPEFY III

2010-10-06T09:15:00.000-07:00

mix media on canvas
oval 16” W x 20” H
- RM 1,400 | USD 400 -

artwork submitted for Art Exhibition - Himpun 2010
to exhibit on 16-30th October 2010
at Peti Seni, National Art Gallery, Kuala Lumpur.

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This technique, the texture and the colour combination somehow really caught everyone's attention. I've sold the first piece in this series in 2009 and this year, I sold another piece during a Exclusive High Tea event in The Royal Bintang Plaza. Honestly, I loves doing this artwork too. It's simple but not as simple as everyone thought.

I can finish this piece real fast if I'm in a very relax mood. Not in the hurry as it will take lots of time to wait for the wax to melt and drip... Sometimes, when I have too much on my mind - this is a very good relaxing session for me. While waiting for the wax to drip, I can really put my thought on the matters that I have to handle. And oh yes! it's a good sauna session too! Hahhahahah. As you can't on any fan or air-condition to do this. Somehow, it's hard. So yes, lets burn some fat by dripping the wax on those canvases! *wink*

Oh ya, it's the new size of canvas You like it? I do!!! This piece is about me imagining looking in the mirror and this is the reflection I saw... The good, the bad, the thick and thin through life!

INTOXICATED II, III & IV

2010-10-02T08:14:00.000-07:00

paint markers on canvas
dia.12" x 3pcs
- unavailable -

artwork submitted for Art Exhibition - Himpun 2010
to exhibit on 16-30th October 2010
at Peti Seni, National Art Gallery, Kuala Lumpur.

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My new client told me that she find my art very dark but her husband, who I know for many years now said he loves my artwork cuz he can relate to it. Yeah, unlike now - he's not happy before. Now, he's the luckiest and the most happy man on earth! Her exact word was 'Melancholic'. And most people I know said my art very dark! Hmmm, I don't deny that cuz that is the excellent time to paint. As painting is my outlet to express my feelings. But lately, I don't paint much as I'm in a very calm and happy situation. Plus busy running around meeting datelines and delivering all my ID job and art competition. Alhamdulillah. I'm a happy girl now...

I bought few round canvases that I saw in the art shop the other day. No idea what to paint or how to paint yet but I know, I'm going to produce some artwork for below RM300 series for few coming occasion. I even bought myself lots of art paint marker to play with. While toying with some ideas, sketching and scribbling... I got an idea!

This piece was inspired by the big giant round LollyPop Candy that I saw in my fridge. A birthday present from Evy & Fairy for last 2 years! *Ahakz* Yes, I still don't have heart to eat them yet. Plus it's a nice deco for my internal fridge shelves! So, maybe it's going to be out from my fridge soon and before I do that - let's try my new Paint Markers on my new shape round canvases!

I'm high on happiness,
From full dosage of love,
May this feelings,
Remains forever.

My Candy Eyes,
Thank you for everything...

INSANITY II

2010-10-01T08:06:00.000-07:00

mix media on canvas
24” x 30”
- RM 2,800 | USD 800 -

artwork submitted for Open Show 2010
to exhibit at Shah Alam Gallery, Yayasan Seni Selangor.

Oct 2010 - RM 2,800 SOLD

to Ms. Z Syah Abu Yazam,
Kelana Jaya, Selangor.

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With additional 2 butterflies! And this piece is now belong to the proud owner in Kelana Jaya. Hanging on her bedroom's wall! *alhamdulillah*

Compare to INSANITY I, this piece is more cheerful and calm... No more sadness I must say. Thanks to Z Syah for being my inspiration. Thought about you a lot while working on this piece. Again, thank you for being here & there for me. You never failed to make me smile and laugh! Notice that pink colour, I know you loves pink a lot! And I must stressed this, my artwork seem more cheerful and happier since you came into my life =)

Dikeheningan malam ini
Aku dihimpit kenangan
Sejarah cinta mengajarku
Sepanjang hari sepanjang malam

Dibenak ku kau sentiasa
Lalu memukau jiwa
Jadi sentimental lelaki ini

Terkadang perjalanan jauh
Yang kan mampu aku menapak
Pendakian gunung yang tinggi
Lembah curam yang ngeri
Aku harungi

Sepuluh musim yang benderang
Bagai direndam perasaan
Mentari terik tak terasa
Awan mendung berlalu berganti masa

Itupun dia kehadiran
Yang tak mungkin aku lepaskan
Dakap erat sepenuh kasih
Genggam genggaman ini menambah seri

Biarlah dunia beredar
Rentak sama kita berlari
Menuju titik permulaan
Belum tahu dimana ia berakhir

Heart for Art - 11+12+13+14

2010-09-04T08:30:00.000-07:00

mix media on canvas
8" x 8" x 4 pcs
- RM65/piece and for every sold piece,
RM5.00 will be donated to a charity organization

RM250 Limited Space Sale Nov 2010

SOLD to Ms Hazlina Harumaini,

Shah Alam Selangor, Malaysia.

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Ramadhan Special... Do you part, buy art you like & part of the proceeding will go to a charity organization. Only RM15-65 per piece. Grab now!

Heart for Art - 8a+b & 9a+b

2010-09-03T02:02:00.000-07:00

mix media on canvas
8" x 8" x 4 pcs
- RM50/piece and for every sold piece,
RM5.00 will be donated to a charity organization -

RM100 - SOLD Gold to Ms Adzliena Ab Rahim, Melaka Malaysia
through Facebook - Heart to Art, Ramadhan Special Project
RM10.00 has been donated to a charity organization for Cambodia Kids

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Ramadhan Special... Do you part, buy art you like & part of the proceeding will go to a charity organization. Only RM15-65 per piece. Grab now!

Heart for Art - 10a+b+c+di, ii & iii

2010-09-02T08:52:00.000-07:00

mix media on canvas
8" x 8" x 8 pcs
- RM50/piece and for every sold piece,
RM5.00 will be donated to a charity organization -

Bottom : Available
Top & Middle : RM400 - SOLD to John F Seademon, Selangor Malaysia

Bottom Left And Right : RM100 - SOLD to Ms Rasyidah Zul, Selangor Malaysia

Bottom Middle : RM100 - SOLD to Ms Carlmelo Hameed, Selangor Malaysia

through Facebook - Heart to Art, Ramadhan Special Project
RM40.00 has been donated to a charity organization for Cambodia Kids

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Ramadhan Special... Do you part, buy art you like & part of the proceeding will go to a charity organization. Only RM15-65 per piece. Grab now!

Heart for Art - 5+6+7

2010-08-31T10:47:00.000-07:00

mix media on canvas
4" x 4" x 3 pcs
- RM25/piece and for every sold piece,
RM2.50 will be donated to a charity organization -

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Ramadhan Special... Do you part, buy art you like & part of the proceeding will go to a charity organization. Only RM15-65 per piece. Grab now!

Heart for Art - 3a+b+d

2010-08-28T10:06:00.000-07:00

mix media on canvas
4" x 4" x 4 pcs
- RM20/piece and for every sold piece,
RM2.50 will be donated to a charity organization -

1. RM100 - SOLD to Heart Shaped Box, Selangor Malaysia
2. RM80 - SOLD to Adlina Merican, Kuala Lumpur Malaysia

3. RM80 - SOLD to Adzliena Ab Rahim, Melaka Malaysia

through Facebook - Heart to Art, Ramadhan Special Project
RM30.00 has been donated to a charity organization for Cambodia Kids

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Ramadhan Special... Do you part, buy art you like & part of the proceeding will go to a charity organization. Only RM15-65 per piece. Grab now!

Heart for Art - 20 Special Order

2010-08-27T10:56:00.000-07:00

mix media on canvas
4" x 4" x 4 pcs
- RM20/piece and for every sold piece,
RM2.50 will be donated to a charity organization -

Top Left : RM20 - SOLD to Nur Haza Abu Hasan, Selangor Malaysia
Top Right : RM20 - SOLD to Heart Shaped Box, Shah Alam Malaysia
Bottom Right & Left : RM40 - SOLD to Nur Suria Mansor, Selangor Malaysia
through Facebook - Heart to Art, Ramadhan Special Project
RM10.00 has been donated to a charity organization for Cambodia Kids

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Ramadhan Special... Do you part, buy art you like & part of the proceeding will go to a charity organization. Only RM15-65 per piece. Grab now!

Heart for Art - 4a+b+c+d-i.

2010-08-25T02:00:00.000-07:00

mix media on canvas
4" x 4" x 4 pcs
- RM20/piece and for every sold piece,
RM2.50 will be donated to a charity organization -

Left : RM100 - SOLD to Nur Haza Abu Hasan, Selangor Malaysia
Right : RM80 - SOLD to Azra Misnan, Melaka Malaysia
Right : RM40 - SOLD to Nur Suria Mansor, Selangor Malaysia
through Facebook - Heart to Art, Ramadhan Special Project
RM27.50 has been donated to a charity organization for Cambodia Kids

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Ramadhan Special... Do you part, buy art you like & part of the proceeding will go to a charity organization. Only RM15-65 per piece. Grab now!

Heart for Art - 1a+b-i & 2b

2010-08-24T10:36:00.000-07:00

mix media on canvas
4" x 4" x 4 pcs
- RM15/piece and for every sold piece,
RM2.50 will be donated to a charity organization -

Left : RM80 - Unavailable
Right : RM80 - SOLD to Steambot Storeroom, Selangor Malaysia
through Facebook - Heart to Art, Ramadhan Special Project
RM10.00 has been donated to a charity organization for Cambodia Kids

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Ramadhan Special... Do you part, buy art you like & part of the proceeding will go to a charity organization. Only RM15-65 per piece. Grab now!

Heart for Art - I5 a

2010-08-23T01:39:00.000-07:00

mix media on canvas
4" x 4" x 4 pcs
- RM15/piece and for every sold piece,
RM2.50 will be donated to a charity organization -

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Ramadhan Special... Do you part, buy art you like & part of the proceeding will go to a charity organization. Only RM15-65 per piece. Grab now!

GLORIFY

2010-08-01T02:10:00.000-07:00

mix media on canvas
36" x 48"
- RM 2,275 | USD 650 -

artwork submitted for Pertandingan MekarCitra 2010
Sempena Sambutan 53 Tahun Kemerdekaan Malaysia
to exhibit at Shah Alam Gallery, Yayasan Seni Selangor.

Nov 2010 Limited Space Sale

RM300 SOLD to Ms Hanazita Nassarudin,

Ampang Selangor, Malaysia.

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Jika diundurkan tika
Kau akan lihat masa dulu kala
Terlihat betapa pentingnya perjuangan
Terlihat betapa besar dan agung
Jasa dan keringat mereka taburkan
Wang, tenaga, masa dan fikiran
Hanya didambarkan untuk perjuangan

Satu perjuangan yang lahir dari jiwa
Satu perjuangan yang terbit dari naluri
Jiwa mereka perkasa
Jiwa mereka murni suci

Setiap langkah hanya untuk anak bangsa
Untuk lihat lahirnya negara bangsa
Perjuangan mesti diteruskan
Hanya itu jalan penyelesaian

Langkah kaki mesti dipercepat
Kerana itu cara perjuangan
Kelompok pimpinan diperkuat
Hati masyarakat semua ditambat

Perjuangan ini murni
Perjuangan ini suci
Hanya ingin satu kebebasan

Kita lihat tika ini
Bangsa kita bangsa merdeka
Separuh abad terpasak di dada dunia
Gah, juara digeruni seantero

Malaysia
Namamu melakar sejarah
Lagakmu mencabar
Kelibatmu ghairah
Sang negara dunia hati – hati denganmu
Resepi bercampur kaum
Serat isi inti dalamnya
Penuh dengan pelbagai rasa
Perpaduan utuh punca segala
Globalisasi dunia pemangkin utama
Namamu gah merentasi sempadan dunia
Ekonomi, teknologi kepakaran terbukti
Dihidang semua untuk bangsa dicintai

Merdeka separuh abad
Bukti keagungan bangsamu
Bukti kekuatan perpaduanmu
Anak bangsa untung menikmati
Dijaga rapi kemas merdeka ini
Untuk santapan cucu cicit
Untuk ingatan cerita nenek moyang

Merdeka sudah dianugerahi
Semat di jiwa simpan di hati
Merdeka ini anugerah Illahi..

FRAY

2010-07-14T05:02:00.000-07:00

mix media on canvas
30" x 40"
- RM 4,550 | USD 1,300 -

artwork submitted for Citra Terengganu Art Competition 2010
Category II - Teremgganu Dalam Kenangan : Perang Besut 1870 an
to exhibit at Terengganu Museum, Kuala Terengganu.

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Sejarah Kita

Tafsiran amarah orang lama
bukan kira keringat
bukan kira nasib
'mari kita berperang!'

Setitis darah merah
menitis
pantas
deras
turun laju
jatuh ke bumi.

Di telinganya,
“isteriku, aku tak pasti
akan kepulanganku..”
“anakku, mungkin besarmu
tiada pemimpin..”
darah dan keringat
mula membasahi tubuh
meresapi setiap liang rongga
menitis dan terus menitis
‘ini perjuangan kami! kita serang!’

Basah bumi hijau
dek simbahan darah pekat merah
dari pergelutan sesama insan
lumpur, keringat, darah
menjadi satu.

Tafsiran juang orang lama
bukan kira tanah Tuhan
bukan kira langit biru
‘aku mahu apa yang aku mahu!’

Mereka tahu
kisah ini akan tertulis
buat pengajaran anak-anak
mungkin ia sebagai kenangan
mungkin juga panduan
atau mungkin hanya sandaran?

Ini interpretasi kaca mata seni
mungkin tiada apa yang perlu dibimbangkan
sejarah bumi Terengganu
yang pasti
tak perlu diulang.

VIVID IV

2010-07-10T04:58:00.000-07:00

mix media on canvas

30" x 40"
- RM 3,500 | USD 1,000 -

artwork submitted for Citra Terengganu Art Competition 2010
Category II - Teremgganu Dalam Kenangan : Perang Besut 1870 an
to exhibit at Terengganu Museum, Kuala Terengganu.

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A day of battle is a day of harvest for the devil.
~William Hooke
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Hening
Suram
Kelam
Suasana tika itu
…
Tiada awan biru
Tiada kicau burung
Tiada mentari menyinari
Bumi Tuhan
…
Mana hilai tawa
Mana gurau senda
Mana dodoi
Mana nyanyian
Mana mimpi indah
…
Mendayu isteri memanggil suami
Laungan suami menggegar Arasyi
…
Jeritan
Pekikan
Tangisan
Rintihan

Yang ada hanya
Hunusan keris
Layangan pedang,
Dentingan bidik dan belati
Di sana sini.

Yang ada hanya
Keringat membanting kederat
Percikan dan tumpahan darah
Laungan semangat perjuangan
Menggegar bumi Terengganu.

Yang ada hanya
Semangat kental
Demi maruah
Demi membela nasib diri!

Limpahan airmata
Tumpahan darah
Harga maruah diri
Tak terbayang apa yang hilang
Cuma tinggal satu soalan
Wajarkah?

SERENITY V

2010-07-04T11:23:00.000-07:00

mix media on canvas

24" x 36"
- RM 1,225 | USD 350 -

July 2010 RM500 Special Price
at Srikandi Exclusive Hi-Tea Event, Royal Bintang Hotel, Mutiara Damansara.
SOLD to Puan Nazimah Abdul Wahid,
Cheras, Selangor, Malaysia.

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EPIPHANY II

2010-05-31T07:05:00.000-07:00

acrylic on canvas
30” x 40”
- RM 1,750 | USD 500 -

Nov 2010 - Feb 2011 displayed at Zakuro 2 Japanese Restaurant,

Ground Floor, Lot 6, No.174-176 Jalan Ampang,

50450 Kuala Lumpur.

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If It Kills me by Jason Mraz

Hello, tell me you know, yeah, you've figured me out
Something gave it away
And it would be such a beautiful moment
To see the look on your face
To know that I know that you know now

And baby that's a case of my wishful thinking
You know nothing
'Cause you and I, why we go carrying on for hours on end
We get along much better than you and your boyfriend

Well, how long can I go on like this,
Wishing to kiss you
Before I rightly explode
And this double life I lead isn't healthy for me
In fact it makes me nervous
If I get caught I could be risking it all
Well, baby there's a lot that I miss in case I'm wrong

If I should be so bold, I'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand
Tell you from the start how I've longed to be your man
But I never said a word I guess I'm gonna miss my chance again

Well, all I really want to do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through

And all I really want from you is to feel me
It's a feeling inside that keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me, if it kills me
It might kill me

DELIRIUM VI

2010-05-30T08:44:00.000-07:00

mix on canvas
12” x 24” x 3pcs
- RM 2,100 | USD 600 -

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Unforbidden shadows of you formed yesterday

I ran away to a room here on the bay

Interrupted life again, another new beginning,

Where the silence echoes; you're no longer with me.

Through the darkness I would walk in the streets.

Confessions never seemed to provide me with a release

Held me down and tried to cure me, tried to give me reason.

But nothing could separate this burdened mind from me.

Here and now, I feel that I'm embracing freedom

Even though I am alone, but that's okay.

And looking out to a different sky will disengage me

Absence is never the answer, I know, but it serves as my shade.

I do not seek and do not intend to find

A calmer ocean or a sun that will never rise.

My world will never change and time will bring you to my thoughts

And I'll move on and then forget you all over again.

Moving on, I can forgive you all over again.

Here and now, I feel that I'm embracing freedom

Even though I may be alone, but that's okay.

And looking out onto a different sky, it seems so easy,

Absence is never the answer, I know, but it serves as my shade.

STUPEFY II

2010-05-18T03:36:00.000-07:00

mix on canvas
24” x 30”
- RM 3,500 | USD 1,000 -

artwork submitted for Artriangle 2010
to exhibit at National Art Galleri, Kuala Lumpur.

July 2010 RM 1,200 Special Price
at Srikandi Exclusive Hi-Tea Event, Royal Bintang Hotel, Mutiara Damansara.
July 2010 SOLD to Puan Abidah Alip,
Kota Damansara, Selangor, Malaysia.

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In early 2009, I sold 6 pcs to HRH Sultan & Sulatanah Pahang's resident along jalan U-Thant. And one of the sold pieces is STUPEFY I. That was among few artwork that I've started experimenting using candles or wax on my canvases. And now, I have managed to improved the way to handle them, hope to create more stroke from it! *wink* And this few week I have been playing with lots of colours of wax that I bought from Ikea and few other place. And guess what, I love the effect and of course the smell!!!

This piece particularly, was inspired by this song sung by a Malaysian group called XPDC many years ago. While listening to this song, I have an image of a reflection of my previously failed relationship but I've got through it and it has ended recently. I'm glad it was over and I cherish all the good memories together. The bad ones? May it won't happen again in the future. Insya-Allah =) So, enjoy!

Di telan pahit, hendak ku buang terasa sayang
Engkau bermadu, hendak ku minum engkau beracun
Kau bisa hingga punah-ranah dan mati akan diriku
Kau kebumikanlah aku di sini

Kau serang hendap cinta yang berbunga di hatiku
Berikan racun pada aku yang sedang dahaga
Cintamu membakar aku hingga jadi abu
Bergunakah aku lagi untukmu

Dewasalah aku dalam perjalanan hari ini
Binasalah aku, andai dikudakan telunjukmu

DELINQUENT I

2010-05-02T05:03:00.000-07:00

mix media on canvas
18” x 24” x 3pcs
- RM 1,575 | USD 450 -

Oct 2010 - RM900 SOLD

to Ms Seri Hamda,
Petaling Jaya, Selangor Darul Ehsan Malaysia.

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Bayangkanlah Lamanmu Berhias Api
Sampai Bila Rumahmu Mampu Berdiri
Sebelum Dipunahkan

Bayangkanlah Lahirmu Ke Alam Ini
Sampai Akhir Hayat Mu Masih Merintih
Menagih Kedamaian

Dalam Hati Terlintas Satu Soalan
Mana Hilang Keinsanan

Bayangkanlah Lautmu Dilanda Taufan
Sampai Bila Layarmu Mampu Bertahan
Sebelum Kau Tenggelam

Bayangkanlah Jagamu Tak Pernah Aman
Sampai Malam Lenamu Rasa Terancam
Kau Dalam Ketakutan

Dalam Hati Terlintas Satu Soalan
Mana Hilang Keinsanan

Mana Hilang Kasih Sayang
Diberikan Tuhan Pada Kita Insan
Hingga Kita Biar Saja Hujan Airmata
Yang Melimpah

REMNANCE II

2010-03-27T11:08:00.001-07:00

acrylic on canvas
12” x 18” x 3pcs
- RM 1,750 | USD 500 -

July 2010 Knock Down Price
at Srikandi Exclusive Hi-Tea Event, Royal Bintang Hotel, Mutiara Damansara.
RM601 SOLD to Sekolah Tun Fatimah Batch 84,
for gift to Srikandi Building, Johor, Malaysia.

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I Am Me Once More by Zee Avi

No, I really don't think so
That you think I'd be incapable of being on my own
No, I really don't think so
That I would for a second let you back in through my door

I have spent many a nights
Even when you are by my side
I shed tears I couldn't dry
I shed tears I couldn't dry

You would turn your head the other way
So you won't have to listen to what I have to say
You assume that I needed you
But you didn't realize that I needed no one but myself
I needed no one but myself

But I should thank you for
Taking my blindfold off now
I ain't jaded no more, no more
And I take pride in being the one that said goodbye
That could only mean I am me, once more

HYPNOTISM III

2010-03-10T08:12:00.000-08:00

acrylic on canvas
15” x 30” x 3pcs
- RM 2,450 | USD 700 -

July 2010 Knock Down Price
RM799 SOLD to Dato Azhar Abdul Wahab,
Alor Gajah, Melaka, Malaysia.

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Eyes On Fire by Blue Foundation

I’ll seek you out,
slay you alive
One more word and you won’t survive
And I’m not scared of your stolen power
I see right through you any hour

I’m taking it slow
Feeding my flame
Shuffling the cards of your game
And just in time
In the right place
Suddenly I will play my ace

I won’t soothe your pain
I won’t ease your strain
You’ll be waiting in vain
I got nothing for you to gain

Eyes on fire
Your spine is ablaze
Felling any foe with my gaze

And just in time
In the right place
Steadily emerging with grace

Felling any foe with my gaze
Steadily emerging with grace
Felling any foe with my gaze
Steadily emerging with grace

DELIRIUM V

2010-02-23T10:55:00.000-08:00

mix media on canvas
8" x 16"
- RM350 - USD 100 -

- artwork submitted for Art Exhibition - Himpun 2010
to exhibit on 16-30th October 2010
at Peti Seni, National Art Gallery, Kuala Lumpur -

- Limited Space Sale Nov 2010

RM500 SOLD to Ms Siti Fatimah Mohd Khairi,

Ampang Selangor, Malaysia. -

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What I would give,
To feel the sunlight on my face.
What I would give,
To be lost in your embrace.

DELIRIUM IV

2010-02-23T10:54:00.000-08:00

mix media on canvas
8" x 16"
- RM 350 | USD 100 -

6 Nov - 6 Dec 2010 exhibited at Pahang Art Museum.
Art Under 500 Exhibition - Mixed Bag of Artist with Mad mixed of Arts.

Limited Space Sale Nov 2010

RM500 SOLD to Ms Siti Fatimah Mohd Khairi,

Ampang Selangor, Malaysia.

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Do you believe in dreams,
That's how I found you.
But I can't be with you,
Till you take a leap of faith.

DELIRIUM III

2010-02-23T10:53:00.000-08:00

mix media on canvas
8" x 16"
- RM 350 | USD 100 -

February 2010 RM 300.00 SOLD to Ms Orked Omar,
Wilayah Persekutuan, Malaysia.

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I've fallen from a distant star,
Came back, compelled because I love.
I'm caught between two different worlds,
I long for one more night of love.

DELIRIUM II

2010-02-23T10:50:00.000-08:00

mix media on canvas
8" x 16"
- RM 350 | USD 100 -

- artwork submitted for Art Exhibition - Himpun 2010
to exhibit on 16-30th October 2010
at Peti Seni, National Art Gallery, Kuala Lumpur -

- Limited Space Sale Nov 2010

RM500 SOLD to Ms Siti Fatimah Mohd Khairi,

Ampang Selangor, Malaysia. -

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Sometimes I call your name,
High on a summer breeze.
What I would give,
To feel the sunlight on my face.
What I would give,
To be lost in your embrace.

DELIRIUM I

2010-02-23T10:43:00.000-08:00

mix media on canvas
8" x 16"
- RM 350 | USD 100 -

February 2010 RM 300.00 SOLD to Engku Zai,

Wilayah Persekutuan, Malaysia.

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Do you remember me,
I'm just a shadow now.
This is where I used to be,
Right here beside you.

SERENDIPITY II

2010-02-22T08:12:00.000-08:00

mix media on canvas
12" x 18" x 3 pcs -
- RM 2,275 | USD 650 -

but going for auction, starting price at RM300!

RM666.00 February 2010 SOLD to Engku Zai,

Seri Kembangan, Wilayah Persekutuan, Malaysia.

RM 334 has been top up by Ms Noorliza Ali Rasah to make it worth RM1,000

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I've first learned about this word was when I was watching a movie back in 2007 called Serendipity. It is a 2001 romantic comedy, starring John Cusack and Kate Beckinsale. Then it gave me some inspiration to do Serendipity I and it was on a Valentine's Day itself.

These year, while everyone was busy thinking, discussing, planning or getting what to gives to their significant other the best gift or surprises; me on the other hand busy with my CNY & Valentine's gift baskets - I thought of paint something on this occasion... Not getting any idea but thought of developing some idea base on Serendipity I.

I've been meaning to do this piece as a theme as yearly event since last year but nothing came up until I saw a videoclip post by Mr Ajek Hassan on his wife's wall on Facebook. Its a cover version of a song called Seluruh Jiwaku Pergi by Anang. His voices really touches my heart. Somehow that song reflected what I felt at that very moment... My current status on relationship, my experiences, my ups & downs. Well, too much to share it here but yes! This pieces is now done. Alhamdulillah.

I must say - this pieces, the song, the melody had a story itself. The meaning of love, hurt, lies, betrayal, laugh, tears and the beauty of the relationship itself. Again, beauty lies in the eye of the beholder and everyone have their opinion on what they see or feel when you see this. So, here you go.

Zillion thanks to Mr Ajek Hassan & Ms Ida for such an inspiration. And yes, click here to enjoy his voice and clip.

Separuh Jiwaku Pergi
Memang Indah Semua
Tapi Berakhir Luka

Kau main hati
Dengan sadar mu
Kau tinggal aku

Benar ku Mencintaimu
Tapi Tak Begini
Kau Khianati Hati Ini
Kau Curangi Aku

Kau Bilang Tak Pernah Bahagia
Selama Dengan Aku
Itu Ucap Bibirmu

Kau Dustakan Semua
Yang Kita Bina
Kau Hancurkan Semua

SERENITY IV

2009-11-12T10:32:00.000-08:00

mix media on canvas

24" x 36" x 3 pcs
- unavailable -

artwork submitted for
The Johor 2009 Tampak Art Competition
to exhibit at Johor Art Gallery.

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I love the beach and time away on the beach is a perfect holiday for me. The sand, big waves, sunny sunshine and warm breeze, is a gift to the human kind from the All Mighty Allah.

A day spent on the beach is a true blessing.

Serenity the series was inspired by the marking left behind by little crabs, finding their way from shore back to the sea during a recent holiday at Desaru, Kota Tinggi.

As we the human kind, find our way back or forth, we too do leave markings…be it good or bad.

Serenity the series, has the beach sand and the markings the way, I saw it.

SEAFARER

2009-11-07T10:23:00.000-08:00

acrylic on canvas
48" x 36"
- RM 2,800 | USD 985 -

artwork submitted for
The Johor 2009 Tampak Art Competition
to exhibit at Johor Art Gallery.

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As I surfed the Hutan Bandar Artist Commnity blogspot, I came across the Johor Art Gallery’s art competition. I was eager to participate but was clueless on what to present.

I wanted my final piece to tell a story about Johor, as Johor is a place I hold close to my heart-though a specific theme was not required by the esteemed organizer.

In Kuala Lumpur, where I am based, time flies without me even realizing it. I am a self-employed interior designer who is passionate about painting.

Johor is a place for me, where I get to unwind. A place where I shop, spend half a day enjoying the tender relaxing treatments in the Spas and enjoy delicious variety of mouth-watering dishes and just do nothing in particular-lazing around and clearing my mind from my daily tight schedule.

I learnt about the seafarers and how they came about in the development of Johor, and this is what inspired me. This is how I describe Johor,... the map of my life.

A place, a destination, a company,
With guaranteed warmth and lots of love
Where times fly with joy and laughter…

EPIPHANY I

2009-11-06T10:39:00.000-08:00

mix media on canvas

30" x 40"
- RM 3,150 | USD 1,100 -

artwork submitted for Artriangle 2010
to exhibit at National Art Gallery, Kuala Lumpur.

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A revelatory manifestation and loosely it means a sudden insight.

A million thanks to Z. Syah for all your comments, ideas and time spent while completing this artwork. And of course recommending the Epiphany song by Chrisette Michele which I name this piece after, has been played while making this piece.

HYPNOTISM II

2009-10-24T06:08:00.000-07:00

acrylic on canvas
36" x 48"
- RM 4,200 | USD 1,450 -

artwork submitted for
Open Art Exhibition Pesta Pulau Pinang 2009
and was picked among the 69 chosen art pieces
from the 154 submitted art pieces
Theme "Muzik Menerusi Spektrum Seni"
to exhibit at Penang State Art Gallery.

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And this one inspired by one of the song in this movie – Ode to Joy, 9th Symphony. And yes, the letter from Ludwig Van Beethoven to his Immortal Beloved.

My angel, my all, my other half…

Just a few words today, and that in pencil… Yours.

Only tomorrow will I know for certain where I am to stay.

A worthless waste of time and such.

Why is deep sorrow?

If we could be united, we would feel this pain no longer.

Where I am, you are with me too.

Soon we shall live together and what a life it will be.

The journey was dreadful.

I did not arrive here until 4 in the morning.

At the last stop,

they warned me against traveling at night

and tried to frighten me about a forest

but that only tempted me.

The coach had to go and break down

on such terrible road for no reason.

Just a country road…

And now I am held up completely

but I have found another.

And we will surely see one another soon.

Today, I hope.

I have to see you.

How ever much you love me, I love you more.

Never hide yourself from me.

While still in my bed, my thoughts turns to you.

My immortal beloved.

Some of them happy… Some sad.

Waiting to see whether fate will hear us.

I can live completely with you or not at all.

Yes, it must be.

I must go to sleep now.

Be calm, Love.

Today, yesterday, what longing with tears for you.

You, you’re my life.

My everything.

Farewell then, go on loving me.

Ever yours,
Ever mine,
Forever.

HYPNOTISM I

2009-10-23T06:04:00.000-07:00

acrylic on canvas
40" x 50"
- RM 5,250 | USD 1,800 -

artwork submitted for
Pertandingan Senilukis Terbuka Pulau Pinang 2009
Theme "Muzik Menerusi Spektrum Seni"
to exhibit at Balai Seni Lukis Pulau Pinang.

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I’ve read an entry regarding the art competition by Balai Seni Lukis Pulau Pinang in one of blog that I followed. Was so eager to join but I have not been painting for quite a while now. It’s been almost 3 months! And the theme for this competition is Music. I think that is not too difficult cuz I love music and most of my artworks inspired by songs.

Tadaa!!! This piece was inspired by the movie that I watched recently with my dear friend at home, its called Immortal Beloved. I’ve watched this movie for hundreds of time, I think. I love Beethoven’s music and yes, the choice of words in this movie. It’s beautiful. Well, I might be bias as I am known as a hopeless romantic person *blush*

Music is a dreadful thing…

What is it? I don’t understand.

What does it do?

It exalts the soul…

Utter nonsense.
If you hear a marching band,
is your soul exalter?
No, you march!
If you hear a waltz, you dance.
If you hear a mass, you take communion.

It is the power of music.
To carry one,
directly into the mental state of the composer.
The listener had no choice.
It is like hypnotism!

TORRENT III

2009-05-18T02:39:00.000-07:00

acrylic on canvas
40" x 50"
- RM 8,750 | USD 3,000 -

artwork submitted for Pameran Terbuka 2009
and was picked among the 171 chosen art pieces
from the 381 submitted art pieces
to exhibit at Galeri Shah Alam, Yayasan Seni Selangor.

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Finally, it's done! I'm finally satisfied with this piece. Notice the signature on it? Yes?! I only sign all my pieces once it's done - means no more changes or additional stroke or what-so-ever. Compared to the previous one, I've added the melting wax on top of it with Bebear's scented candle that she got for e last year from Ikea Singapore. Which now makes this artwork heavier compared to before and of course nicer smell! Varnish the circular image.Oh ya, the additional smoke and watermark around it too! I'm so glad that it's done way before the closing date, which is on the May 29, 2009. I must say that this is my most favorite piece and not planning to sell it unless someone willing to pay the price I've quoted. Not quite ready to be parted with this yet...

Plan to send it on Friday. I have a good vibes on this piece. I think Torrent III gonna make it to be display at the gallery and hoping to won the 'Incentive Award' of RM1,000.0 as well. Insya-Allah. My only worries is will it be taken care properly and can it fit my Envee? Hmmm...

"Take What You Take"

A picture paints a thousand words,
As one door closes, another door opens,
And two wrongs don't make a right
Now good things come to those who wait,
Take the highs with the lows dear,
You'll get what your given and everything's gonna be alright.

What the fuck do you know?
Just cos you're old you think your wise,
But who the hell are you though,
I didn't even ask for your advice
You wanna keep your mouth shut,
You wanna take your thoughts elsewhere,
Cos you're doing in my nut,
And do you think I care?

Say what you say, Do what you do,
Feel what you feel, As long as it's real.
I said take what you take and give what you give
Just be what you want, Just as long as it's real.

Now by a horse, I once was told
That all that glitters is not gold
And all that is to fear is fear itself.
This horsey also told me,
I should keep my friends close but my enemies closer,
So as to protect myself.

RETROSPECTIVELY I

2009-05-12T12:50:00.000-07:00

mix media on canvas
20" x 30"
- RM 1,225 | USD 460 -

July 2009 - RM 500.00 SOLD
to Puan Lita Zainuddin,
Putrajaya, Wilayah Persekutuan, Malaysia.

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Another letter received - The Scarlet Letter i call it. My heart stop while reading this, my mind tried to translate it into some images, vividly with some colors involved but mainly red. Maybe there's lots of red and blodd word in it. Or just how I interpreted it. I don't know. So, i started with this piece. At first, it was all red and black but as i read it repeatedly and understand it better, it's not as 'dark' as i thought it was... i think. I could be wrong but again, that's just my interpretation.

Retrospectively. Written at 245 pm 10/2/09.

My heart is burning in my chest. There is an old happiness I can’t get to purging itself from me, getting caught in my throat, making me lurch. I am working. And that makes me think of all the so many who can’t let out the cries they need to in order to just let it go. I wish I could hide in the bathroom for a half an hour and sob into my arms. I think maybe I am supposed to see a lesson in all of this love. The backbone of us is twisted. The balance is thrown off. I can’t keep fighting my heart away for something that will let me keep on fighting forever. I want to feel good. And I’m pretty good at doing that alone...but you are so vivid. And alive. Red.

So here goes… writing from what is left of my heart.

RETROSPECTIVELY II

2009-05-12T12:44:00.000-07:00

mix media on canvas
20" x 30"
- RM 1,225 | USD 460 -

but going for auction, starting price at RM250!

April 2010 - RM263 SOLD

to Cik Siti Mahiran Abdul Hadi,
Wilayah Persekutuan, Malaysia.

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So here goes… writing from what is left of my heart.

I got scared.
So I called your phone too many times.
My head isn’t straight these days.
I’ve been busy carving walls out of anger.
Scratching letters in the red, wishing they were the love kind.

I had these wings once and I swear
now it’s like all the paper weight
often turns the feathers into the wrong words.
I swear now it’s like all the people's games
often turns the wind into an argument.

But honest...
I trust you like the god above me.
Like the god above me.
And I was scared.
Because what if you
were curled up on the side of a highway
holding your phone, paralyzed.
An accident, a crime.
What if.

What if a phone ringing
could pull you out of unconsciousness
if you were hurt badly, and losing grip?
What if.

What if I’m a lonely person?
What if I miss you when you're gone?
What if I make mistakes?
What if I treat you wrong...
I have always been grandiose.

But these fictional possibilities cross my mind
when there is silence.
And I get scared to think the past
is all I have of knowing you.

RETROSPECTIVELY III

2009-05-12T12:26:00.000-07:00

mix media on canvas
20" x 30"

- RM 1.225 | USD 460 -

Nov 2009 artwork submitted for Art for Aids (AFA)
Theme "Fighting Aids with Art"

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And finally, I stopped. The last piece completed once I have the gold paint. It just strike my mind that this poem, pouring out the scared of losing someone. Above all the troubles, headaches and dramas... It's a magical experience for one to be with another one, a precious moment that need to be shared.

Zillion thanks to this person for not ashamed to pour it out and share this piece with me.

REMNANCE I

2009-04-02T20:51:00.000-07:00

color markers on canvas
8" x 15"

- unavailable -

Nov 2009 artwork submitted for Art for Aids (AFA)
Theme "Fighting Aids with Art"

personal collection,

Ms Jassmine Shadiqe,

Johor Bahru, Malaysia.

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hurt...
yelling, screaming, bruised and bleeding
never leaving memories of your hate.

hate...
not good enough subject to your rage
constant beatings damaged spirit
self-conscious always searching
constantly loathing
too fat, too ugly
shattered soul, emotions hidden, locked from everyone
walls built high waiting for that one to enter.

love...
care, compassion
knight in shining armour holding me close
too far away, distance testing my strength
playing with fate
a lonely girl tears falling.

cry...
nothing left to do
curl in a ball, shed tears
because I'm hurt

sigh...
the chain of events in my life.

VIVID III

2009-02-25T22:42:00.000-08:00

mix media on canvas
30" x 40"
- unavailable -

Nov 2009 artwork submitted for Art for Aids (AFA)
Theme "Fighting Aids with Art"

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I received this letter last week, one day before Valentine's Day. While reading it, this images comes to my head. I whispered to myself, thought provoking!!! For the sender and me, the receiver. Guess what?! When 'The Sender' saw this piece, no question, no word, nothing came out, no comment, nada... Didn't say anything about it then until the very next morning when i received sms from The Sender and exact word for what The Sender think of my artwork is Thought Provoking! I'm so surprise. We shared the same exact sentiments towards each other stuff. Interpretation of The Sender words from me and my artwork from what The Sender wrote... And this artwork based on words below... Thank you for this letter and I hope you don't mind I post and share it here in my entry.

Desire is first and foremost a wound.
and i looked at her and the part of my chest over my heart I punched.
and i have been thinking about this idea since it left my head..
and entered my wondering mind.

i've been so quiet today. when there are moments for things to be said, i feel i have nothing to say. I am blank currently after what had happened and I don’t really know if that is good or bad but I told myself again about the manifesto I am planning to write very soon. How I want to write about love, somehow capturing within words the poisoning effect the representation of romance in society has had on me, and everyone else that I know, struggling to feel complete. I have always believed in love, always believed in romance too and a couple of days ago, like a heat wave I felt something huge release from inside of me and what was left only made me sad. what was left was a feeling of abandonment because a couple of days ago I realized in one moment that I was slowly losing grip on an ideal I have believed in since I first started learning what it was for two people to be in love and I first learned that when I was very small. so now, all grown up and still a child of some faraway place, when the thought enters my mind that maybe all these years I was wrong about love, I feel like I’ve lost myself all over again. Like the way I would watch my bruises develop for 12 years, that kind of loss. Except this time I am finding that what was there wasn't something at all, it was the illusion of something that never existed. Really?

I wanted the paintings of love, the bowls of fruit full of love, the charcoal drawings of love, the clay, and the hands. I wanted to grow up so I could fit like a puzzle piece with someone and what I mean by all this is, I wanted someone to love me, as I love them. i remember the day when the motivational speaker in the auditorium had said, "you can be anything when you grow up, so, what do YOU want to be?" and I would sit in my room alone and thinking so hard about what I wanted. What did I want? What was I, first of all? And how was I supposed to figure out why I might want anything at all? And I got lost in all of my questions. The biggest was me and the only answer I could ever find, even as someone still too short to get the bowls down from the cabinet for my morning cereal was that I knew I could love, and that was all I knew. Truly.

And now I know, some of us are meant to love. Meant for it, and it meant for them. I’m one of those kinds, I think maybe you are too and I think maybe we should all forget about everything else we've ever learned, stop worrying about whatever it is we worry about and just love. Just get back to just loving, then the world can take a deep breath, kiss with its eyes closed and we can begin to live like artwork again. Instead of all of this confusion we have nowadays...

and anyway, I’ve been waiting for you.

and as always, I’m always writing to a you and the you that I write to is always unattainable, just like the illusion of all those perfectly happy couples in the movies because I don’t know anyone personally whose parents are exemplary. Even my own. And I have never had a relationship last. I don't think I’ve ever been taught to trust that love does last in so many forms. It dwindles away when time takes the breath out of bodies, takes our life away slowly. It torments when the time becomes a waiting line, when the you that I write to can’t find the words to love, find the movement to love, find the hands, the lips, the confidence. It disappears when I can’t stop growing. The more I learn about all the ways people are marked by their bodies and divided into compartmentalized categories which language constructs around difference, I see how hard it is to actually feel connected to the things and people around us. We all see differently. you see differently too, even though you don't know how to tell about it and I am here and you are there, somewhere, believing in love so much that you would stop it from happening altogether just to keep it safe. And I think the whole world isn't safe. And I think love, the way I’ve learned it, isn't safe. And I think maybe someday I can love everything in a way that is safe, but that everyday I get closer to having absolutely nothing to say.

So every time I close my eyes I will thank god for the space without pain that comes from behind closed eyes because the instant I awaken, the love I have for you wants to crawl from my chest and speak out loud to tell you of its presence. It wants to come out of my eyes, from the tips of my fingertips. It wants to move my feet, my arms. When I open my eyes, the world does not make any sense. The way we have learned to believe in straight lines. The way we think we know how progression should happen. The terms we've become accustomed to living by. I need to do this and I need to do this and I need to do this and I need... I need... I need... before love could ever happen. I need. Confidence, check. Independence, check. Eloquence, check. My own apartment, check. College degree, check. Money in the back account, check. Friends, who aren’t a waste of time, check. Self love, check. Courage.... courage, check. Checks check check. You want to be somebody, forgetting that you already are. And I want to be somebody to you, somebody close. Somebody every morning. Somebody right now.

And now I am simply in love. And I am in love with you. I want the world to know that too. That you already have my heart. You are beginning to have my soul. And somehow despite the multitude of courage I got scared.

VIVID II

2009-02-11T02:23:00.000-08:00

mix media on canvas
30" x 40"
- RM 4,200 | USD 1,450 -

Aug 2008 - RM 3,500 SOLD

to Dr Norhamizan Hamzah,

Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.

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Have you ever hurt someone you loved most so bad till you can’t even forgive yourself??? I had and I did… And I regret it. How could I be so cruel and mean? How could i? What’s on my mind when I did that? I don’t know… I just lost it and there’s nothing I can do to undo it. Sigh…

May be it’s best I let her go? Should i? But should I make that decision without asking what she think or want? Will I be selfish for making that decision without even asking her??? Well, I don’t think anybody would want to be with me ever again after what has been said and done… Should I ask for another chance? Do I deserve one after all I’ve said and done? Aghhh! I really don’t know what to do now.

I can even afford to think seeing her again after what I did last night. Too embarrass, too guilty, too much! How should I face her? Let alone to look her in the eye like how I used to do before? I don’t know… I just don’t know what to do.

Can I hug her, kiss her and hold her like how I used to do? Cuz I love doing that… She fits my arms perfectly and she always said that it fit like a perfect puzzle piece. Sigh… Absent is unfair.

May be I should let her to decide. To leave or to stay… Cuz I know, I should be punish! In any way, it is like a punishment to me. If she leave, it served me right. I blew it off! I let my anger took place when I said numerous times of love and even claim that I love her too much! Why do I do that to someone who gave her heart, soul and trust to me when I’m all along asking from God for someone to loves me back? Sigh… I screw it up, I know. Well, if she stay… I’ll be forever scared to say I love you ever again cuz i might taking advantage of hurting her again? Will I be able to look her in the eye and said those precious words and mean it?

I don’t know what to do now…
I just don’t know.

But one thing I do know, I won’t be the same anymore until I can forgive myself again… Until I can look in her eyes and say I love her and I want to be with her without feeling guilty again… Mean time, I just wait for her decision. Let everything else but me be the judge of it. Let the fate and destiny lead the path. I'll just wait for my punishments...

VIVID I

2009-02-10T02:12:00.000-08:00

mix media on canvas
30" x 40"
- RM 4,200 | USD 1,450 -

Nov 2009 artwork submitted for Art for Aids (AFA)
Theme "Fighting Aids with Art"

Aug 2008 - RM 3,500 SOLD

to Dr Norhamizan Hamzah,

Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.

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Something happened today, i sat in front of my computer and begun to reflect myself. This song played in my mind on and on until i finally decided to put it on my Itunes on repeat mode and reaching for my canvases, brushes and colours...

Its been a while since my last 'distraction' where i buried myself into my canvass and let all the brushes and colours do the talking. That explain why I'm not at peace lately and the way i react to reaction on certain matters. My mind were crazy, chaos, raging, exploding and every where while I'm on this piece but i love the end result.

A little secret to share, there no light except from 3 candles that i'm using on this piece. So, when I on the light once it's done... Wowee! I loves the results!!!

Zillion thanks to Dr N Hamzah for such an inspiration, loves, trust and faith.

"Goodbye My Lover - James Blunt"

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blind and I knew I had won.

So I took what's mine by eternal right,
Took your soul out into the night,
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.

You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind but then I knew it,
My heart was blinded by you.

I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

I am a dreamer and when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be

I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.

I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

RAMPAGE IV

2008-11-14T03:01:00.000-08:00

acrylic on canvas
36" x 48"
- RM 2,975 | USD 850 -

artwork submitted for Open Show 2009
to exhibit at Shah Alam Gallery, Yayasan Seni Selangor.

Nov 2010 - Feb 2011 displayed at Zakuro 2 Japanese Restaurant,

Ground Floor, Lot 6, No.174-176 Jalan Ampang,

50450 Kuala Lumpur.

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Hahahhahahhahaaa!
I thought it's over but i guess it's not!
Another Rampage Series =)

ALLUSION VI

2008-11-13T02:57:00.000-08:00

acrylic on canvas
36" x 48"
- UNAVAILABLE -

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I don't quite like this piece, it used to be Allusion II. Been looking at it and wonder what went wrong and what's missing until today... I just can't stand looking at her, diluted black and white and splashed on top of her!

well, if i still don't like it after this, i might as well repainted it!

RAMPAGE III

2008-11-13T02:51:00.000-08:00

acrylic on canvas
24" x 36"
- RM 2,625 | USD 925 -

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So many things in my mind.
So many unsettle issues.
So many people are taking advantage.

Aggghhhhh!!! F*** it!
and the victims are the usual suspect,
my colours, brushes and canvas'...

RAMPAGE II

2008-11-13T02:48:00.000-08:00

acrylic on canvas
24" x 36"
- RM 3,325 | USD 1,160 -

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And it doesn't stop there! It continues to this one and the next one... Felt so much better after done with all this. Hehheheheee...

RAMPAGE I

2008-11-13T02:39:00.000-08:00

acrylic on canvas
24" x 36"
- RM 2,625 | USD 925 -

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Running amok, sometimes referred to as simply amok (also spelled amuck or amuk), is derived from the Malay/Indonesian/Filipino word amuk, meaning "mad with rage" (uncontrollable rage).

The word was in use in India during the British Empire, originally to describe an elephant gone mad, separated from its herd, running wild and causing devastation. The word was made popular by the colonial tales of Rudyard Kipling.

Although commonly used in a colloquial and less-violent sense, the phrase is particularly associated with a specific sociopathic culture-bound syndrome in Malaysian culture. In a typical case of running amok, a male who has shown no previous sign of anger or any inclination to violence will acquire a weapon and, in a sudden frenzy, will attempt to kill or seriously injure anyone he encounters. Amok episodes of this kind normally end with the attacker being killed by bystanders, or committing suicide.

PIECES II

2008-11-06T13:47:00.000-08:00

acrylic on canvas
15" x 30"
- RM 875 | USD 340 -

Nov 2009 artwork submitted for Art for Aids (AFA)
Theme "Fighting Aids with Art"

July 2010 Knock Down Price
RM299 SOLD to Ms Syah Abu Yazam,

Subang Jaya, Selangor, Malaysia.

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Every time I had my mind set onto something, His test arrived and I failed to get through those. Sometimes, I wonder… Will I ever be successful? Will I ever be rich? Sigh… I don’t know and really have no idea about this. Deep in my heart I know, one day I will get and be somewhere ‘up’ there but then again, I heard voices that say I will just be like this forever. Aaggghhhhhh!!!

I don’t think I’m lazy but I know I can be if I want to. I think I’m very ambitious, have a lot of ideas, some might work but some is just a plain silly trick to put a smile on my own face. I’m so blessed that I am creative, in many way. I can diversify and be something that I never really imagine doing it! And I’m stating the obvious here that I am beautiful, smart, funny, creative and multi-talented like everybody told me. Not one, two or three person had said that but many! Almost every person that I’ve met.

I don’t do this often, I mean boasting about myself, as I’m pretty down-to-earth kind of person. I mean when it comes to me I rather people find out themselves. Maybe due to low self esteem, lack of self confident and being insecure after the big hit and I have fallen pretty bad this time.

OK! Let’s get back to what I’m trying to say today. About my career, goals and achievement. I know specifically what I want in my life, not too specific but in every details and angle. Is good or bad? I don’t know. Some might say its good cuz you know what are you aiming for and some might say its bad cuz you might close or slip other opportunity that comes to you along the way. To me it depends…

Lemme share the story about me, my career, my so-called “best-friend” and my life. Read more here.

LEVITY II

2008-11-05T00:01:00.000-08:00

acrylic on canvas
20" x 20" x 3pcs
- RM 1,050 | USD 400 -

Nov 2010 - May 2011 displayed at Zakuro 2 Japanese Restaurant,

Ground Floor, Lot 6, No.174-176 Jalan Ampang,

50450 Kuala Lumpur.

Nov 2010 Limited Space Sale

RM 750 SOLD to Ms Hanazita Nassarudin,

Ampang Selangor, Malaysia.

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i just don't know what to think now. he's never there when i need him. i should move on and i am moving on... i never have luck in this department. maybe i am meant to be alone, to face everything by myself, cheer up everybody at any time but no one fo me. i'm just tired being strong. i'm tired putting on plastic smiles all the time. i'm tired pretending all ok.

Shadows fill an empty heart as love is fading,

From all the things that we are but are not saying.

Can we see beyond the scars and make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky and open up to,

The ways you made me feel alive, the ways I loved you.

For all the things that never died to make it through the night.

The sun is breaking in your eyes tTo start a new day.

This broken heart can still survive with a touch of your grace.

Shadows fade into the light, I am by your side,

Where love will find you.

What about now? What about today?

What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?

What if our love had never went away?

What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

Baby, before it's too late...

What about now? now that we're here,

Now that we've come this far, just hold on.

There is nothing to fear for I am right beside you.

For all my life, I am yours.

ALLUSION V

2008-11-04T23:57:00.000-08:00

acrylic on canvas
12" x 24" x 3 pcs
- RM 1,750 | USD 635 -

Nov 2010 - May 2011 displayed at Zakuro 2 Japanese Restaurant,

Ground Floor, Lot 6, No.174-176 Jalan Ampang,

50450 Kuala Lumpur.

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An allusion is a literary device that stimulates ideas, associations, and extra information in the reader's mind with only a word or two. Allusion means 'reference'. It relies on the reader being able to understand the allusion and being familiar with all of the meaning hidden behind the words.

Allusions in writing help the reader to visualize what's happening by evoking a mental picture. But the reader must be aware of the allusion and must be familiar with what it alludes to.

In general, the use of allusions by an author shows an expectation that the reader is familiar with the references made, otherwise the effect is lost. A piece of writing with many allusions (some of which may be very obscure) will be very rich with evoked images, but will do nothing for a reader who is not well-read.

ALLUSION IV

2008-11-04T23:37:00.000-08:00

acrylic on canvas
12" x 24"
- RM 1,000 | USD 385 -

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1. a passing or casual reference; an incidental mention of something, either directly or by implication: an allusion to Shakespeare.
2. the act of alluding.
3. Obsolete. a metaphor; parable.

TORRENT II

2008-05-03T02:31:00.000-07:00

acrylic on canvas
15" x 30" x 3pcs
- unavailable -

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"Littlest Things"

Sometimes I find myself sittin' back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissin'
And I remember when you started callin' me your miss's
All the play fightin', all the flirtatious disses
I'd tell you sad stories about my childhood
I don't why I trusted you but I knew that I could
We'd spend the whole weekend lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy in your boxers and your t-shirt

Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too.

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?

the first time that you introduced me to your friends
and you could tell I was nervous, so you held my hand
when I was feeling down, you made that face you do
There's no one in the world that could replace you

TORRENT I

2008-04-25T02:10:00.000-07:00

acrylic on canvas
30" x 40"
- RM 2,450 | USD 870 -

Nov 2009 - RM 1,800 SOLD

to Ms Jassmine Shadiqe,

Johor Bahru, Malaysia -

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at first, i almost repainted this piece cuz this is not what i have in mind. been sitting on my easel for quite sometimes. until few of my friend said 'this is new style, different and nice' and i continue painted it until one day, i have to come to my sense that 'this is not bad'...

and this is the result, many of them who has seen it before and likes it, now loves it! especially TT, who constantly in my mind when i did this piece. i kinda like it too just that, it is not really up to my personal self satisfaction but i'm ok with it. surprisingly, i'm not the only one cuz my lil bro also, didn't really fancy it.

but then again, beauty lies in the eye of the beholders. so, enjoy!

"Shame For You"

I've been thinking that you've crossed the line,
if you disagree well that will be just fine,
cos you waste my time and waste my money
and your not too cool and your not so funny!
Oh my gosh you must be joking me
if you think that you'll be poking me.

Don't take me on no, no
Don't take me on
Shattered the lie but you think I don't already know,
Don't try to deny cos my fuse is ready to blow
Its your turn to learn I think that you know where to go
It's a shame, shame, shame for you

Please don't come around and knock on my door
cos I don't want to have to pick you up of the floor,
when you ask if we can still be lovers,
I'll have to introduce my brothers,
Think that they could teach you a lesson or two,
By the time they've finished you'll be black and blue
You'll be crying like a baby,
A sea of tears they'll call the navy in.

JUST I, II & III

2008-04-23T07:20:00.001-07:00

acrylic on canvas
8" x 16" x 3 pcs
- RM 700 | USD 200 -

but going for auction, starting price at RM50/each!

JUST I & III - RM52 & RM70
April 2010 SOLD to Cik Siti Mahiran Abdul Hadi,
Wilayah Persekutuan, Malaysia.

JUST II - RM70
April 2010 SOLD to En Halim Gem,
Melaka, Malaysia.

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just because i have time and nothing better to do
just because i've got too much too think and need a distraction
just because i have canvass and loads of colours
just because i don't have any idea but in the mood to paint
just because i need to splash those colour and hold the brush
just because this and that

then, just do it!

STREAM IV

2008-04-18T22:16:00.000-07:00

acrylic on canvas
20” x 30”
- RM 1,225 | USD 460 -

Nov - Dec 2010 exhibited at Pahang Art Museum.

Art Under 500 Exhibition - Mixed Bag of Artist with Mad mixed of Arts.

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…and my brush just don’t want to stop talking to the canvas,
pouring out whatever on my mind, like the rain…

STREAM III

2008-04-17T22:12:00.000-07:00

acrylic on canvas
20” x 30”
- RM 1,225 | USD 460 -

STREAM II

2008-03-24T15:17:00.000-07:00

acrylic on canvass
20” x 30”
- RM 875 | USD 340 -

Nov - Dec 2010 exhibited at Pahang Art Museum.
Art Under 500 Exhibition - Mixed Bag of Artist with Mad mixed of Arts.

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It's the wheather here in KL.
It's been raining cats and dogs.
And i just can't help from letting myself streaming with those water at my windows.
It's a nice feeling.

...and Rihanna song still playing in my head!

STREAM I

2008-01-28T15:09:00.000-08:00

acrylic on canvas
20” x 30”
- RM 875 | USD 340 -

Nov - Dec 2010 exhibited at Pahang Art Museum.
Art Under 500 Exhibition - Mixed Bag of Artist with Mad mixed of Arts.

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- Umbrella by Rihanna -

No clouds in my storms
Let it rain, I hydroplane in the bank
Coming down with the Dow Jones
When the clouds come we gone, we Rocafella
She fly higher than weather
And G5’s are better, You know me,
An anticipation, for precipitation. Stacked chips for the rainy day
Jay, Rain Man is back with little Ms. Sunshine
Rihanna where you at?

You have my heart and we'll never be worlds apart
May be in magazines but you'll still be my star
Baby cause in the dark
You can't see shiny cars
And that's when you need me there
With you I'll always share
Because

When the sun shines, we’ll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be a friend
Took an oath I'ma stick it out till the end
Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella
Under my umbrella

These fancy things, will never come in between
You're part of my entity, here for Infinity
When the war has took it's part
When the world has dealt it's cards
If the hand is hard, together we'll mend your heart
Because

You can run into my arms
It's okay don't be alarmed
Come into me
There's no distance in between our love
So go on and let the rain pour
I'll be all you need and more
Because

It's raining
Ooh baby it's raining
Baby come into me
Come into me
It's raining
Oh baby it's raining